God's Will
Lots of talk at church lately about God's Will. What is God's Will for my life? Am I in God's Will or am I on a side road or have I wondered out of His Will? Am I outside of God's Will or inside?
As I question God's Will, I look back on my life and see hoe God's Will has played out for me, for us.
I know God knows all, sees all, controls all. I know there are no coincidences with God. We just don't happen to have situations. Nothing surprises God. And yet so much surprises me!
Looking back, I see the Sovereign hand of God in my life, in our life!
Let's see - in 1993 we just happen to come to NC to visit my dad and we just happen to not continue our plans and get married in NC. We just happen to "love" NC and decided to move in Aug. We did not know what was "calling" us to NC, we just knew we liked it and wanted to move there. 800 miles away from family. What was "drawing" us to NC?
Looking back I know it was not coincidence that we came here. It was the path God placed us on to "save" our marriage. To strengthen our marriage! To make our marriage a successful marriage. A lasting marriage! A loving marriage!
Same has been true with our kids! I really only wanted 2 kids. A boy the older and a girl the younger. The boy was going to look and be just like Chris, the girl a mini me! Boy, did God surprise us there! I totally love our 4 children! Could not image life without any of them. My plans vs God's plan! Who knew!! And the funny yet crazy thing is - I could have 4 more children, seriously!!
Complete Bunny trail - or as a friend would say Gopher Hole!!
I find as the kids get older, I sit and think back to the way it was when they were little. Oh if I could go back. I would be a different parent. I would love more, I would take more time to sit with them, I would take more time to listen. What seemed like took forever really was over in a blink!
Not that I am not enjoying my kids now or that they are bad or anything. I would love to know all I know now, back then. I was NOT teachable, I did NOT look at each day as a gift, I was so wrapped up in my way, not how to love them best.
Loving them best is dying to self, humility, not thinking of what I want at all. I am not saying as a mother we should never dream of being trapped on a desert island. I am saying wanting to be on that desert island not to get away but to fill myself up to love even more.
Refocus!!
So my questions about God's Will are so freeing when I take into consideration that He knew all of this from the beginning of time. I have always been in God's Will, well since I became a Christ follower! There have been times my actions, attitude, and choices were and are not pleasing to the Lord! But I am in His Will for my life.
I have had those times when I have thought if I have acted outside of His Will and are paying the consequences for that.
This time has been good for me to understand the difference between being in His Will and pleasing Him with my life. Being a living sacrifice acceptable to God in a worshipful way.
This week I have had a chance to hang with my Sweet Pea, we have had a great time together. through the choices she will have to make in the next year or so I am to explain to her the difference between God's Will and living in a worshipful way.
I love being a Mom! I love being a Wife! I love most of all being a Christ Follower!
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